all times are strange, i hope you believe me. ‘the all is one’. celibacy rodeo, fall in love [?] and lust after the void of someone. brain consumes more than 10x its own weight in mental matter. i’m 'healthy’ as a horse but a jellyfish would be ideal.
‘I was sitting, writing at my text-book; but the work did
not progress; my thoughts were elsewhere. I turned my chair to the fire
and dozed. Again the atoms were gamboling
before my eyes. This time the smaller groups kept modestly in the
background. My mental eye, rendered more acute by the repeated visions
of the kind, could now distinguish larger structures of manifold
conformation: long rows, sometimes more closely fitted together; all
twining and twisting in snake-like motion. But look! What was that? One
of the snakes had seized hold of its own tail, and the form whirled
mockingly before my eyes. As if by a flash of lightning I awoke; and
this time also I spent the rest of the night in working out the
consequences of the hypothesis.’
